Life Changes

Over the past year, my life and my son's lives has undergone some major changes. My marriage fell to pieces when my now ex husband did some very bad things and rather than blame himself rightfully, he blamed our son's autism among many other excuses. Watching my son adjust as we'll as adjusting myself has been interesting. There have been many sleepless nights as well as a resurfacing of old behaviors. I get my son past a behavior that he already overcame only for another one to appear. The schedule has also been an adjustment. When I have him, he is on a routine however when  I get him back from his father, he is slightly off and that makes it hard to get him back on his regular routine. I will say this though.. Through the difficult transition, my son has had some major improvements with his communication. He has gone from a 10 word vocabulary to a 30 word vocabulary. His ability to understand has improved ten fold. It is my belief that the decreased stress in the home has allowed for him to be able to open up and reveal his true self. That is not to say though that the challenges of the behaviors haven't been difficult. At the end of the day, all we can do as parents is support, guide and love our children and hope that it will be enough to prepare them for a future which they can not only be independent but also a productive member of society. We tend to overly concern ourselves with whether or not we are making the right decisions and often times, miss out on the little things that mean the most. My goal for the future is continue to do the best I can as a single mom and once in awhile just breathe & ignore the self doubt that is my greatest enemy.